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2008-12-19T02:24:00.003+08:00

ok. more than a year since i blogged. and im not gonna announce i blogged.

This year passed super fast? Right now my mind is blank about all that has happened. All i know of is. BHCE BHCE BHCE BHCE and BHCE. and. guess what? BHCE! sigh. we started out to oppose geco. now we're just us. a group of +-20 friends, who are just simply bonded and want to stay on together for the friendship and music and interest and hobby. I was all set to leave everything behind and leave, and this have to pop into my life. sigh =/ hate BHCE LOL! JKJKJK. but yeah =/ i have no bloody idea how life can ever be the same after this kind of bonding with people! maybe i'll just move on, but how can i not look back? to anyone from bhce who sees this: WE ARE US (sounds weird but...). we exist for noone but ourselves :D just keep going (at least i know 1 person will see this sooner or later)

ok. anw. i shall do abit of recap.

2008 jan - mjc. hated it.
mar - tjc. hated it even more. played cards in lounge whenever i can with yanren, zhaohan, shihyeng, zhian, shengya, kaiyang and random people. and talked about burning the school all the time cuz of the screwed timetable. met yiheng frm tjco. who rocked (the only person i newly met who i still keep in contact with)

around may - that's when i started to get to know...junan junyuan joel and yuheng (all J -.-) went nhco and abused them (verbally). i mean only andy =/ prays he dont see this. but ohwell =/ got to meet ppl like fusheng jasselyn yubo jasmine claire. and syco, which rocked. but less than last year. CUZ OF SHENG!!! RAWR. why did desmond and yirui leave? walao. we rocked last year! best attendence award leh. LOL.

ard may i also agreed to join bh. but around september i got to know bh!!! :D <3

so. ya. bh rocks and rocks. and you get the idea.

so ard sep i stopped tj too!!!! (no word exist yet to describe the happiness)

oh. and sep there was 2 weeks when i wanted to die. cuz suddenly sy ended and bh ended :(

and ya. bh rocks again.

so yep. nth much that made me want to stay. except bh -.- rawr. *faint*

ya. so. ya. sigh. =(

and its like. now. bh is moving on. i just hope i wont be left behind. WAIT FOR ME! its only 4 months XD for now =/

sigh. yiusum needs to come to US soon. then we can start co over there XD then all the bh ppl can go US too or smthn :D

oh. now i love 古都风情 and 祭神 still. and chinese song LOL. just so happens its what i've been playing with recently. i fall in love with everything i work with XD

xunqi junyuan joel zongjin zheng tenghui shermaine maisarah liankai binghong johnathan emma dawn william yiusum qianwen zhiguang reginald and hubert PLEASE REMEMBER to add me to mass convo everyday XD

2007-09-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

oh well. prelims have ended. haha. think i didnt do well, but neither will i work harder for O. lol. i'm just like this. sigh.

anw, i think life is much better now that i've learnt to be alone. sometimes it's so wonderful to exist and not think.

freedom is most important to me now i guess.

oh. and today is the school's funny mid-autumn festival whatever. to conclue in a word - 'failure'. beyond measure perhaps...

and i seriously think i like 祭神 & 满江红 ALOT now. haha. mi do mi. lol.

and life is so boring with only exams and NO LESSON. NO CO. NO NOTHING! tian ah..

2007-07-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

Decided to blog. cuz i just watched the rookie on channel 5. well. for at least the last hour of the money, i practically did not stop crying =( simply felt that i fully understod the movie. maybe it was just like me. or maybe what i hope. oh wells.

And i'm just happy i chose to be truthful afterall i guess. for the better of mankind =x

2007-07-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

i am a FOOL. seriously. totally too.

2007-06-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

i have found what i wanted. will continue to want it. PATIENCE. achievement is important =)

hope i pass my dsa.

长相思，摧心肝。

2007-06-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

haha. so long never blog. tmr is dsa le. well, you can't say i don't care about it, but at least i won't feel THAT sad if i don't get in. but still i feel evil lol. if i get in...that's stripping others of their chance to study lor. cuz i'm only going there for bout half a year. want something nice to write in my U application. but anyway, this is life. and also, it's not everyday people can see me being so selfish and evil =D

umm. you get the point. it's not really not my fault. but still....

2007-06-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

quandered another day doing nothing much. helped my sis with her puzzle abit, watched tv and write song. man. nowadays the song i write so no meaning. cuz i don't know what i'm writing about or what i'm writing for, so i just keep writing. it's becoming an obsession more than a hobby, and it's not good. and last friday i just learnt so much in those few mins linlaoshi taught me conducting. it's like alot of problems solved. anyway, there's co tmr again. i don't feel like going for once, cuz i'm seriously tired (not physically), so i just want to stay at home and just...well...waste more time. i don't really want to talk le. nothing much to look forward to though. maybe olevels? yeah right. lol. now i'm actually answering my own questions. guess i'll just end off in the usual way i like to.

垂之而不可得之命
天涯觅知音，
故乡泣至亲。
风霜纹面露，
依旧游子心。

2007-05-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

hah. there's SYCO tmr. and gosh. i think i forgot all the songs already. and it's just 2 more weeks to concert. have to practice hard for the upcoming week. guess i'll end up in co room almost everyday. luckily i have the key =) and YES! AHSCO is going to be back SOON. and then i can ask people help me play my song. though i wonder if there will be many who is willing to help. and i'm going to see bingo soon. somehow..so guess my song can get a review soon. don't wish to show him the concerto yet though. take things slowly hehe. patience is a virtue, and take things step by step.

by the way, mid year was quite terrible for me. although it's the best results i have ever gotten for an SA. L1R5 20. and i am totally unhappy about mrs lam. well. she meant well for me, but it cause me to flunk my chem. in a way or another. but it is all because i'm an abnormal person and that her psychological attack worked adversely on me =(
she said i failed my paper 2, so i got all depressed and gave up paper 1, and flunked, paper 1. in the end i got 63/80 for paper 2 =) but 20/40 for paper 1 =( sigh. 1 more mark to A2, then i can get L1R5 19, out of SSS too...well, but it's not a bad thing though. force me to study, just that i can't have as much time as i would have liked for CO.

and these few days i'm really happy cause i'm now writing a new song, called [in direct translation] happy western dragon. lol. hope it will be yet another improvement since 思绪. i hope to improve. cause i'm studying about symphonies recently. plan to write one soon. symphony poem maybe. for CO as usual =) 4 movemens i will try. haha. high hopes. but i am totally not confident about the quality of my songs. no one to review. i WANT BINGO NOW!

2007-05-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

somehow, i got my new computer over exam period. especially when its an exam i did terribly in. ohwells. at least i can now look forward to AHCO and SYCO =) such joy. and more time to do music stuff...i'm TERRIBLY busy cause of my song. getting it ready for printing tmr. just hope the librarian wont scold me for printing too much. sigh. exams are such crap. under so much stress. the more i listen to my song the more i realise i'm just a depressed kid.

2007-05-12T17:41:00.000+08:00

lol. it's been so long since i blogged. the one a few hours ago doesn't count =x

my sister is BACK and I'M HAPPY!!!

ohwells. anyway, i a goner for exams this time round. can't really say i tried my best. unless you count my best as trying to write music more than i am trying to study. well, but i did study more than i did in the past. at least i feel that way. oh. and i just wish to tell the whole world how happy i am! well. it's VERY happy. so. not easy to express in words eh? i mean. i finished my song. it lasts for 15mins and 40 secs. so it is as on my computer. and i started on it on...errr. my previous post says. 12 of april. 1 month exactly. see? as i promised. anyway, writing this song has taught me so much. i've learnt so much through it. music aside, it let me think through lots of things. i can only say i chose a great topic for my song. thoughts. haha. really had me deeply thinking at times. sorted out so much frustrations. i LOVE THE SONG. maybe because i understand what i wanted to express. but i don't really consider it nice, nor do i consider it special or unique or whatever. it is just a simple song. wierd perhaps. music is truly a great way to write compo. ANYTHING can be expressed. unlike words, which just CAN'T express some feelings. sigh. i just WISH HOPE AND HOPE some more that one day a CO can play it =) oh and i hope people like it. it's really errr...just...hmm...words can't be used to express this feeling. oh well. it will roll out of the printer soon anyway, i can't use my home printer. plan to use school library's. it's 66 pages for full score. plus 80 pages or so of part scores =( patience. but the point is there's like always someone using computer 12 in school. sigh.

i've thought through. it's worth it, but still, i must have patience. sort things out slowly. it is never a waste to wait. it is always best to think clearly first, what is more important....maybe i do not know.

-oh by the way, i was always thinking to stop writing songs after this. but i have a great topic and starting for a new song. havent started, but i will use the topic if i ever write another song.
the name is 《欢腾的洋龙》. sort of just a dragon stomping the ground and flying around happily, but it's the melody that's more important. have it in my mind already. just hope i wont forget it when i wnat to start writing. is my music career over yet??!??!??!?! PLEASE TELL ME!!!

2007-05-12T14:16:00.000+08:00

为了《思绪》词歌，我可算是呕心沥血了。
是凭我自己的思想写的。昨天又给它题诗一首∶

叹天地有情我无奈
英雄者；情关甚难过。纵然落发三千清幽度，在世望穿红尘入佛户。自欺也；春思亦时复：
两相自古固难全，称圣号俗一线悬。男儿哭出长江泪，血气意发何须缓？
其因自得解，十字言成败∶拜倒石榴裙，英雄同枉生！

2007-04-22T22:08:00.000+08:00

弃我去者，昨日之日不可留；
乱我心者，今日之日多烦忧。
长风万里送秋雁，对此可以酣高楼。
蓬莱文章建安骨，中间小谢又清发。
俱怀逸兴壮思飞，欲上青天揽明月。
抽刀断水水更流，举杯浇愁愁更愁。
人生在世不称意，明朝散发弄扁舟。
-李白

is it worth?

the more i write the worse it gets. it has to STOP for a week. it MUST!!!

愁有何欢
乐亦何苦

2007-04-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

i'm going crazy. reading books now = think of music. RARR. 5 days down. going to move into cadenza soon. sigh. the easy part. but it's hard at the same time. but i will finish it.

骏马纵俊无伯乐
游鱼自游无池水

2007-04-03T20:55:00.000+08:00

i smiled through life today =)

i feel so lonely and bored now. emptiness.

well. my music career is over? *poof*. gone? i guess? would it ever occur at such a climax again in my life? i have years ahead to check it out.

for now, i shall just write one last song and tell myself it is over. but i hope it is not. i hope this is just a beginning. but can it be?

ONE LAST song. promise myself. i must resist.

2007-04-02T21:52:00.000+08:00

i don't want to say anything. just that AHSCO got GOLD and i'm HAPPY. that's all.

oh. and thanks all that made this happen =) it's so wonderful being a member of this great family.

2007-03-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

today i was playing chuan tong sheng. only to realise how little tai feng i have when playing zhong yin sheng. GRRR. with chuan tong sheng i can MOVE and MOVE and MOVE and SWAY and JUMP and whatever. BUT I CAN SHOW my tai feng with it. GRRR. i want to play wen cheng gong zhu. RARRRRR. 6 more days le. we can STILL achieve something great. but it all depends on us. but linlaoshi is right too. don't be so persistent in medals. what is important is the process. AND i'm leaving in 6 days la. sigh.

近去无闻如土聚
遥复破心如灰散

2007-03-25T15:00:00.000+08:00

长空万里，
大地无际。
踏步天地静神游，
梦何止？

战役终究有一天会结束。生存与毁灭这场千古的战役也一样。人类不过是赌注，只是世界上微不足道的牺牲品。但有此一生，是要庆幸人生错综复杂带来的喜怒哀乐，还是要悔恨存在过？

或许我现在有了答案。有或许，这答案带给我的意义会在不久的将来悄然离去，但直至目前，它依然带给我无穷无际的寄托。谢谢天地所赐的礼物。只望这份礼物能长存于世，庆幸人生是自己的曾经，回首之时有着无尽的思绪。

随我不曾，也未必会拥有，但已然得到。这就足够了。

2007-03-22T21:02:00.000+08:00

felt like posting. but i don't know what to say. so confused right now. thinking so much without reason. facing a split-road in life. rarrrrrrrrrr.

2007-03-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

江山如画回首五彩尽灭
美人如花心知昙花早谢

交舞彩连连绵续尽头无颜色
幼花瓣落落无声悄辞无枝叶

埋望叹何止长至白头近咫尺

寡言相对知己逢！

2007-03-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

突然想把写东西表达感觉：

寂夜悠
闭目静寂蛇蚁闻，
入梦三分思远游！
惆怅既至愁更愁，
烈日尽洪枕浸忧。

寡
黯然风消鸟飞绝，
凄清息止人待归。
风飘然呼单向行，
人无常兮大迁移。

2007-03-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

well. my previous post de zui le so many people. here i just wish to clarify things. you might think i'm trying to cover up but whatever, i don't care. thanks for pointing things i've said wrongly and i really accept what all of you have said. and perhaps we are indeed doing the wrong thing. wait ah...i use chinese le la. if not convey wrong meaning again. 我也知道我自己本身也不是很好。而有很多的人也做出了自己最大的努力与付出，多少也有了一些成果。但我在前文中所说的并不是针对这些人。相信我，需要在努力一点的人大有人在。我并没有说他们没有作出足够的贡献。只不过希望他们能再进一步。就如同我之前说的：这是一种恳求。
再来，我自己知道我本身是很差劲的一个演员。当在纠正你们的时候，我说得很多事情自己都没有做到。这点上我无法自圆其说，只能在此向心里受到创伤的人道歉，并自己再下功夫去把自己说的练好。对于又尝试着做出来的人，我很欣慰。
话以至此，如有再不满者，我不知该怎样面对你们。要恨就恨我吧。有些事情做出来就会让大家看不顺眼，但我还是会做。
and, i agree with clarence that we're on the wrong track. but i really really don't know what to do anymore. if we don't do this, i don't know whether there's still time for other ways. i have no ideas right now too.

2007-03-12T18:39:00.000+08:00

ok. today i have time to blog.

co camp is over. how i wish it lasted longer. throught it i learnt alot about myself somehow. now i seriously think i don't know myself any longer. am i those calm type or crazy type? my emotions can change so drastically under different circumstances la.

ok. 1st day was dazu as usual. after that, we were split into groups. i was in plotz with (too many ppl that i don't want to list all). after that we had interaction. wendy (group leader) nvr come, and yuline (agl) need to do night games, so me and seok xian took charge. so unprepared. din't even know what to do. ok, so this year we ran around and we got the most points in the end for the murder (7 1/2). but we got 3rd just because other groups were able to get how it ended. next we went for meeting? debrif? whatever it is lor. then talk. then went to bath. then went back, supposedly to have hweekay breif us bout our stations tmr, but she say mine too complicated and never. so lingered ard and in the end went to the vending machine which many ppl's drinks failed to come out. so i bout a dunno which drink. and out came more than 10 packets lol. so we took it and shared it among ppl in the concourse.

2nd day wake up had mifen for breakfast, and then it was dazu. somehow i think i did ok la. but ppl always say my tempo got prob. not that it doesn't. just that if you really want to maintain and you see the WHOLE CO STARING at their scores, it is nearly impossible to do it. then me and simin spent a whole lot of time teaching everyone tai feng. WHICH MOST NEVER SHOW TODAY. grrr. whatever. then it was lunch. but i never eat -.- i was planning the guan mo hui with simin. only to realize LATER LATER on that she ate. oh. i feel so scammed. anw, the station game began, and i was bored waiting. last station. but luckily clarence came along, so i had some1 to talk to. and my station is just crap. the cane can't be in place one la. next is telematch and cap's ball. which turned into water game. i got into the warfare thx to mervin and simin. they gang me! zzz. so i was like take a pail and went looking for them. i splashed simin a little then don't want le. dun feel good bullying her. so i went chasing mervin like a madman. and in the end alot of us ended in the boys toilet splashing mervin. and halfway thru i rmb someone (chinny?) asked if she can splash me and i stood there for her to splash. so wet so cool. and i cut my hand. and thx to hongchew and his alchohol, its quite pain. but actually still ok for me. then bbq. was playin zhong ji mi ma with fiona jing wei liming huiling jinjia yanzhou. so fun. then halfway thru we just keep going 'eeee-yo' so fun. so we're called the funky club. whatever lor. and then halfway thru bbq linlaoshi came. ENTING IS SO CUTE. so fun. so i accidentally let slip that i wanted to murder him =x joking. i'm sure linlao shi dunno my blog? and i was mostly hanging out at mervin's group. wanted to talk to him for some reason. i thought that the others were just not the right company to talk to at that time. so i went crazy that night. and i shouted when making announcement for guan mo hui. IT WAS SO COOL. i can SHOUT. weee. and i was quite sure everyone can hear. and xian zheng they all was so lame and lead in a cheer for me =x then me and simin wanted to continue the guan mo hui thing in co room. then halfway there (when turning the corner), frederick gabriel and another michael was sitting there and they were like calling out to me. and simin got scared and din't dare go on anymore. so she went to pull the other guys and we went in to take the zong pu out, so we went to outside concourse to do it with mervin. then somehow i ended up sitting in a circle playing cheat with terie mervin simin jinjia lihan and was it yanzhou? and again we somehow ended up singing feng nian ji by 'pak'-ing lol. i rmb is simin who started it (oh yes, and this reminds me that we din't even start on the arranging. looks like it really is going to last till next year? =x) . then somehow AGAIN i was learning/playing cards with xian zheng. and i went to sleep on the table.

3rd day. guan mo hui is just a disaster. and it was partly my fault. 1st is cuz they were all late and we had less then an hour for it. next is the bars which was set the day before was very disorganized in my phone (simin said 'now i know why you can't be a musician. so messy) break my heart la. my dream. *piang* ='( and halfway through the ruan part, I DISTINCTLY THINK MY TEMPO IS RIGHT though the whole world think its not. sight. mroe trainin for me then. BUT I CAN BE A MUSICIAN. GET IT? I CAN! ok. calm down pls. next we cleated bunk. OH MY! this is the first year i din't do ANYTHING. the sec 1s did all. THANK LOADS. and then we watched ppt. which binli and seok xian took much effort to make. thx loads to them too. it was dun looking at the pictures. but i dont like the one of me conducting. so ugly. then camp ended and me jinjia chinny lihan eileen and mervin wanted to go 85 eat, but mervin got thing in the end. lol. so once again its the 5 of us. we ate, but the rest were just too tired, so we also din't talk much, end it ended by jinjia going off and me and chinny finished our last game of cai quan. she's still lagging abit though. and i went home to continue some music, and fell asleep awhile and watched tv.

today is just crap. IM SO SORELY DISSAPPOINTED AT PEOPLE who never 'yao'. i'm am SO pissed with co. simin is too. please don't dissappoint us anymore. and to those who think i'm a idiot who can't do anything, and is wasting everyone's time during sectionals where i conduct, i won't blame you all, but here, i will tell you all that i spend more time studying the score than anyone have practicing their own part. i am confident.

and to those who simply can't understand the hard work many of us put in for you to succeed, it's is time to put differences apart and PLEASE PLEASE work towards the same aim everyone has in their heart. i just KNOW everyone has the disire to show the school we cna do it. but we will never achieve anything without trying. time is only precious if we do not waste them. and please show me and those who care for all of you that you all can understand and really just put in the effort and time to do better. we don't even have one month. this is not a request, it is not reprimanding all of you, for my part at most, it is begging all of you to do it. maybe not for you alone, but please, for CO.

also, i hereby make a promise for all to see that i really want to TRY to change for the better. i REALLY don't want to do anything crazy of askew anymore. i just want to leave a nice impression before i leave. i don't deny i have many flaws and that i abit mental, but trust me i will try to change. behold.

to end off, i still wish to repeat that i am on the verge of collapsing no matter how little i show it, and PLEASE, for the last time, i have done loads and please show me that all of you can do you little parts to make the goal in roars of applause.

2007-03-04T19:35:00.000+08:00

happy birthday sister. tho it shld be yesterday. i fell asleep at night =x

it is starting to get so boring nowadays. parents getting all fussed up about o levels already. can't i have just a while longer to concentrate on music? i discovered that i'm getting more and more fond of music. shld i just pursue my hobby? don't know. and auralia is so fun. but i still can't get perfect fifths and fourths correct. frustrating. then there's those styles which i learnt too. then everytime i learn something new i will try writing something of that style. so fun. anyway, i think i need to go esplanade library borrow more books again. kind of need more information for composing styles. and i think i like conducting too. seeing lin lao shi conduct is a great way to learn. and the next time i get to do it, i don't want to follow what lin lao shi do le =x i wanna do it the way i feel it should go XD still confused on what to pursue in future. math? music? WHAT?! then tmr got syco. zzz. i DON'T want to go so early. everyone there is so late. so confused rarh.

2007-02-20T16:02:00.000+08:00

最近悲喜交加，不知心有何感，也不知如何是好。彷徨。

在此有感而发。借字消愁痛苦甚难言：

空滞独入户，满载双燕归。

镜花水月楼台高歌，子虚乌有峻岭长叹。

觅其意，得其思，海角近咫尺，天涯共此时。

心思不过数字语，
望穿秋水到头空！

2007-02-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

yay. my dad is doing something. i can use com even so late. ok.

today morning got pulled up by my dad to go visit my mum. so i went. though i was quite unhappy to be woken up. but anyway once i was awake, i was able to get on quite happily. it's relatively quite hard to make me unhappy recently =) and so i went to esplanade library later on to borrow books. and sadly they are all in chinese XD nvm. i promise i will borrow english ones next time. and so i went back to see my mum. then went to church 1 hour late. haiz. after that cell and have fun and talk AND i spilled my whole upsized coke in mac. so embarassing. but that wasn't the main thing. i was laughing at how stupid it is to do such a thing. im so totally dumb. and i find that im going crazy. conducting and singing halfway while walking might look...er...relatively...like you just came out of woodbridge. but luckily someone else is doing it XD and so two crazy people. i sang finish jian kuai aft you left haha. arghh. and now im home. doing nothing in particular. plan to read my book later. i wannna finish the one on music styles first. ITS SUCH A GREAT BOOK. theres info on huan4 xiang3 qu3 and jing4 xing2 qu3 and all that...SO COOL. i shall go borrow more in the future if im free enough. got o level, sat 2, syco, syf even. arghh. how am i going to manage? its ok. i think i can pull through. where theres a motivation, theres a way =)

2007-02-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

today want to cry le. so unhappy about my conducting. i rather i did not do it lah. might as well be a metrenome and don't do any cres/dim/rit etc. i mean what's the point when all they know is to play by just PLAYING. arghh. can't everyone just feel the music?

2007-01-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

crap. now that i finished my SAT, i have the feeling i can go to much better schools than i expected. And although 3 of the 4 schools i wanted needed this, i didn't bother until now. SAT 2!!! yes...there is a NUMBER 2! crap. guess i have to start studying again after all. and 2 is based on subject. i think i will be taking math 1, math 2 and physics. ALTHOUGH there is a subject called chinese and listening or something like that. BUT it is irrelevant. Anyway, i should stop working for awhile. Let's say 2 to 3 weeks? Should give me plenty of time for music! First up, arrange canon in D for CO. Next, find someone to teach me western flute (i want a professional thx). and to pick up piano from where i left it (this maybe i can do myself or with some help). Next, perhaps i will want to arrange more songs for CO, depending on the availability of time and whether it will produce any purposeful result. Sigh. Sibelius is SUCH A GREAT PROGRAM. And i'm downloading Kontakt Gold. So i will lend it to someone soon enough. MUSIC ROX. I LOVE IT. ESPECIALLY ORCHESTRATION. SO FUN. and i have a whole booklist of books/CDs i want to borrow from the libraries all over singapore (mostly @ esplanade). borrowing time =) sigh...but i still want to study math in the future. i want music too...but my parents don't want, and the inner me tells me not to too. sigh. ok lor. life have its way. we'll see. in a few years times?

time is never a factor if i want it.

2007-01-27T14:53:00.000+08:00

It is over today! i should be now, but i'm feeling TOTALLY miserable. i do not even want to be home now. i want to be out and distracting my thoughts. i don't even know why i'm feeling this way. haiz. i thought i will be happily coming home today. but, who knows.

well. today i went to ngee ann sec to take exam. before that, i woke up at 6!!! to clear my thoughts (i feeling sleepy now). then my dad sent me there. i was like. onc of the youngest people there? most were jc at least. i just hope that the results come quickly. personally i think it was EASY. VERY EASY. but who knows what might happen. and for a long time since last, i angry with my dad. yesterday i just wanted to slack and do some music while blogging. and he came in and scolded me. what i take everything too lightly, like it's a game. not like he don't know how hard i worked (maybe he don't). then i walked away frm ngee ann sec to take bus to school. to take pencil box for someone =.= anw, then sent it to her. (now to think of it so servile XD joking). then i wanted to eat lunch outside, cuz i didn't want to go home. but i didn't do that. went home and here i am. bored, happy, sad, miserable, glad. haiz....what am i now? what to do now?...

10 hours more

2007-01-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

10 hours more to SAT. Thx all those who wished me luck =) So stressed. Somehow i rather with that i take it NOW. End faster. Please let me do well. I don't want to put in so much to get so little. We'll see. I really don't know why i'm blogging now. But i'm just SO SIMPLY have nothing to do. How i wish someone can talk to me now... I will blog like crazy tommorow. And go tag on blogs!!! I'm just so...tired for now. And I PROMISE i will be fierce on thur =X

Sighs and sighs. After SAT is a time to do MANY things. Things most people don't know apply to me. Perhaps, everyone think i'm a blur blur child. Or honest? But i personally think i have LOTS of chances to cheat on people. Just that i choose not to.

MORE SIGHS...sighh...10 more hours and we'll see =)

2006-12-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

since i wont buy book till fri, this means tt im FREE. in fact im not...i still got lists of vocab. but...well...brain cant take in too many words a day. or i'll be a dictionary...blog...hmm...nth much really...tts all...and for all who care, im bored.

2006-12-07T18:41:00.000+08:00

im TOTALLY SICK AND TIRED of studying...so i decided to blog for a little...not many things happened this hol...just...co prac/study/a leadership camp/study/co prac/co chalet/co prac/study.

1. co pracS

As usual...bored...especially now lxb has a SON!!!...crap...the more i no need to prac...recently i juz realise i noe all my sheng techniques le...nth more to learn...im gonna start learning ruan frm simin and xian zheng...and when i start learning, i'll make sure i LEARN!...muahaha...ltr next yr i change section...anw...a new instru is gd...at least i can have something to learn...haiz...oh...the usual digressing...ok...co prac...its just...go there see my sheng and sian...cuz i noe like everything?...ok la...i hao lian..but i lazy go prac a song real well...cuz what's that for? no chance for me to solo oso...anw i wanted to join BHCO..but jin jia is gonna quit...so 4get it...so where do i go?..i no faith i can get into SY...i think i suk lol...anw...dilemma..so i dun care...concentrate on studying!....im using com in my parents room...hehe...tho i moved it there, i still can use...but strangely, once its in my parents room, i dun feel like playing it anymore...which is good...study...for one purpose i'll soon reveal.

2. co leadership camp

ah...most fun activity in my hols. went with someone...and cab cost me...hmm...$30-40?...i 4got...ok anw...1st day was boring at 1st...no one we knew...so it was like sian sian den talk to each other...den me and she is like not much common topic...so...yeah...u get the pnt...den got into groups, knew more ppl...den fun started to come...1st day we play outdoor games, so it was really play..fun fun...and i realise that tho 8 yr no PE, i still better den quite some ppl lol...strange...anw...was fun...but grouping so tiring...they purposely group same sch ppl in diff group so tt u can know more ppl...im like...errrrr...ok la...but still can understand...den 2nd day was lecture + group presentation. ok i like the lectures, cuz learn more thing...den the dunno what person was teaching how to fix sheng...and its like...omg?...lxb say all b4 le?...tho im not there but 3 yrs le i oso noe le...den e rest so intrigued i was sian sian...quite qian da...group presentation we won lol!!!...thx to jing xiong...he's a cool person...v v ez to get along...he call me slping beuty cuz i 1st day v tired...was trying to slp whenever i got chance...but thx to him we won?...and his gao hu v gd...only saw him playin when walking into e room on 3rd day..but gd enough le...too bad my sheng just one pipe...wanna sway oso v hard...SO I LEARN CHUAN TONG SHENG...yay...can whole person stand and sway liao...next day i HAD TO BRING E WHOLE SHENG FRM SCH TO THERE...so instead of taking cab frm MRT, we took cab frm sch...she at 1st dun wan...cuz my sheng attract alot of attention lol...but well..cuz i die die still muz take cab, so i ask her along..den i pay..but she was late...waited at MRT in cab awhile...anw...she paid some of it in e end...THX ALOT...i was almost broke...ok...3rd day is conducting...well...quite cool...see alot of ppl try...alot of funny things...i think i looked funny too...well i cant see...i chose to use hand...den she conducted too...better then me i think...well..she more experience...ok den i guess she got her liking of conducting here...den prize presentation...watched 2 ppt that was v nice...but qian da when they tease ppl...ok...fine...they teased me...den she won best trainee...tho alot of ppl thot at 1st is she win best conductor...well..congrats...(i was typing ur name all along...den i rmb u say dun tell any1 u went...so i cancelled and use 'she' lol...tho i think some ppl noe who u are..)

3.co farewell

well...its real fun..tho i dint feel sad even when simin insisted the minor chords she played on guitar was sad...maybe im too cold blooded...anw...1st day was for comm...den we went there...helped to carry things...den started crapping...played cards with huiling liming and yulin...until tian wai fei xian started, den liming and yuling went aways frm our world...BUT THER ARE MORE STRANGE THAN ME...they watch like they LOVE IT SO MUCH...den keep criticising...whatever that's for...den call binli and zhimin help buy kfc...den all started watching jue dui superstar...fine...boring...den i went to shawn's house borrow xbox game...(THANK YOU SHAWN...UR SO GREAT...i asked for halo 1 u lend halo 2 + so many others...DUNNO HOW TO THANK YOU ENOUGH...tho when i return u game u made me wait 1/2 hour..)...walked 1 hour to reach his house and back...den MEETING...what great timing...ok...den i PIA XBOX FOR BOUT 7 HOURS...i SIT THERE and STONED...until morning...clarence and bing rong dunno y so early come...den i went out fetch yan zhou..when i come back...rush off with binli for our station le...den i study SAT...(THE STUPID IRRITATING FOOLSCAP PAD KEEP DROPPING AND JUST SIMPLY DISINTEGRATED) ok den buy buy...i was ready to faint...so i took cab...den zhen senior...me and yan zhou had to count as boys senior and get zhen-ed together...cuz not enough boys...crap...2 yrs of being zhen-ed..den fun fun...den dunno how and how...(cuz im not really alive) i started playin xbox with jin jia...halo 2...ok den play...i killed the...what ever you call it...i rmb shooting it for 10 mins+...to no avail...in e end is board his vehicle and punch it...I WAS FED UP...4-5 punches only...AND WE SPENT 10+ MINS SHOOTING...crap..den i went to the balcony to think bout my stuff and practically just stone...next day...5 woke up...go shawn house return game...thx again...den go back chalet...SLEEP!!!wake up...den go home le..

although there WAS one day when mum had a stupid party, i went to pasir ris beach and prac-ed my sheng for 1 hr+...COOL...i think i might wanna do that in future...thoi i did that mainly cuz xian zheng/jin jia's house not free for me...Y_Y...wantedf learn their instrus...haha...last resort was go church...but benedict and bryan all not there...dun expect me to pester simin right?...im not that type...den i went home...IN PEACE...cuiz no more ppl hoime le...haha

tml co prac again...lxb MUST COME...anw...he will i think...now i think i wont post ANYMORE UNTIL 27 JANUARY cuz i going for SAT then...bb..STUDY...luckily i found my motivation in the nick of time...HAHAHAHAHA

2006-10-29T10:46:00.000+08:00

I will not care about my blog for a long time because i have a VERY VERY MUCH MORE important thing at hand. It affects my future. In fact it determines my future. And i want a great future just to get one single thing from this present. I hope time allows everything. Wait for the future to get what i want now. I'm doing everything for the thing i want now. So please wait for the future to come.

2006-10-11T20:12:00.000+08:00

today marks the end of the exams...and the beginning of terror that will soon follow.

1st: today emath paper...well...i think i might be the only one...but..at the last 2 Q...i saw the bold in Q14 saying : ans whole Q on graph paper...den my mind dunno y...without looking at it THEN...i thought is like amath EITHER/OR!!!...den i left whole Q blank...WHEN I HAD 10 MINS TO SLEEP...and b4 I SLEPT!!!...i was looking at tt Q thinking how to do...and DID IT!!!...CRAP...9 marks...throw away one...nice sia...

2nd: mon night...i wanted to revise my chi...i copied a whole paper of words...den wanted to ting xie myself...den i discovered my mum THREW IT away...nice sia...den in e end i spent like until 1 to read it again...

3rd: tml...i wonder what will happen. but i had a thought that day talking to jian wen...i plan to get whatever i want now...in the future..that's so much better...i can get things with a CAPITAL to FALL on...

4th: who wanna go watch world trade centre at CINEMA!...

5th: when is cca gonna start?...i wanna ask lxb how to do chuan tong sheng he yin fingering...

2006-10-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

长话短说，短话不说，无话可说。chang2 hua4 duan3 shuo1, duan3 hua4 bu4 shuo1, wu2 hua4 ke3 shuo1.

so thats y im not really going to say anything...juz wanna post a song and report smthn i notice...

when i was still in pri sch...i was playin cyber strike 2 online...thats ages ago old game...and everyone was typing =)/:)..
now its a diff story...its (:/(=/((((((((((((((((((((((((((=/:....y?!...though im in a dilemma of using both...hehe

thx to chen yu...

2006-09-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long nvr blog...cuz i wanted to slack...anw...1st lets talk about Diablo II : Lord of Destruction. finally got my nec to 50...well...summoner like b4...and training zealot =)...maybe kyrogue might wanna play with me...
next is sch...BORING!...no cca...den last time the personal development shit...i pon again...called yan ren act as me...den got discovered...oh well...who cares?...and this sat got a CRAP FORUM SHIT...i dunno y lily kho wanna choose me...ITS NO REASON...1stly im the pon all this crap type, and also im e go there sian only one...she which part not happy?...zz...well...although i cant TOUCH MY SHENG, but IM PRACTICING MY CHUAN TONG SHENG...haha...im at dan yin lian xi 15...haiz...can only say i 'horse horse tiget tiger' know la...at least close eyes can play D major...AND I STILL RMB IM HAPPY THAT I CAN FLUTTER...oh yes...ALL TEACHERS + STUDENTS who are serious is pissed by me...i lesson halfway get urge to flutter den all will scold me...WHAT CRAP..ITS NOT MY FAULT...i juz wanna improve my instrument...sian...den ppl will call me keep quiet...me chen say: shut it. girls say: shut up/i will kill u/etc....WHY?!!??!?!?!?...zzz....ok...and here i ask whoever walk by if u noe a instrument can teach me?...pls tag my blog if ur willing...i find zhong yin sheng to be too boring...not much du zou...only got lots and lots of chong zou...and i doubt ne1 wanna play with me...sad...
now about family...as usual...happy...
now about language!...im still in english mode...on internet that is...but im not sure when i'll turn back to bilingual..or maybe pure chinese?!=)..hmm...and the sch's chuan tong sheng is SO spoilt...sry...out of topic...hmmi like math as a language...so purely clean...this idea introduced to me by bing rong..thx...so pure the language is...anw...can any christian tell me if a christian can use vulgarities or offensive words?...ok thats out of topic here too...but juz tell me...

2006-09-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

今日乃本人平生所记之时日中最开心之日!!!!!!!!!
AFTER 1 YEAR....i finally learned how to FLUTTER TONGUE!!!!LOL!!!TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH MAN!!!IM SOOOOO HAPPYYYYY....is happy until words cannot describe one!.....OH MY GOD.....I UNTIL NOW STILL HAPPY!!!!HAPPY LEH!!!MUAHAHAHAHAHA....DEN SOME MORE I LEARNED HOW TO SUCK FLUTTER ON SAME DAY!!!!WOOOO!!!...but bin li darn not happy...cuz i learned how to suck flutter.....relax la....den she still dunno how hu she....well..prac more =)...BUT BUT BUT!!!IM STILL HAPPY!!!...I NOW STILL CANT FALL ASLEEP...DO YOU ALL KNOW WHAT IS HAPPY?! THIS IS!!!...1 YEAR AND FINALLY SUCCEEDING!!!WOOO...ok...it went like this...my dad teach me how to use throat...i use use use...how come throat no vicration....den it was like...WHAT THE CRAP AM I DOING....den i dint believe i using tongue...cant feel it...BUT I WAS!!!....I ACTUALLY WAS MAN!!!!HAPPY!!!....den bin li said try blowing e air more in front..DEN CAN!!!CAN LEH!!!!HAPPY!!!!....den i know liao...SO EZ...SPEND 1 YEAR!!!ROARRRRRR...ZZZ.....ANW...HAPPY!!!!

2006-09-06T19:29:00.000+08:00

holiday...stay at home...sian...go out = waste money...stay at home = boring...SIAN LA...snore...haiz...den this time holiday cca so little...mon & fri only...y not more....snore...mon sectional = boring...or did we even had a sectional...we were there fooling...at least for my part...hope fri can b more fun and tt lxb wont go lian one same song THROUGHOUT its like...such a GREAT variaty can?....SO FUN AND SO MUCH JOY...juz hope he can like prac some other songs this fri muahaha....tml gonna go smwhere at night...its called a religious thingy...though its nt a religion...supposedly :)

2006-09-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

today was FUN...i spent...lets count (11am to 8pm, 9pm to now [11.28pm]) 11 AND A HALF HOUR reading BIBLE and listening to MUSIC...FUN!!!a few times...i almost fell asleep X)...but continued anw...i could have went for e bbq...but...i feel so xtra there....nt their member...not wadever...go there oso nth to do..might as well read bible...but i feel so bad rejecting ppl =(

i wonder which donkey year will i finish bible...its like....SUCH A SMALL BOOK...with THIN PAPER...THIN!!!...SMALL WORDS...SMALL!!!!MICROSCOPIC...i feel like i reading fast le lo....especially when i readin each book twice =)...find more Q to ask...muahahaha...FUN DAY....SO FUN...mum teach one...write compo muz focus on 1 point...so....SO FUN!!!!FUN!!

2006-08-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

suddenly...sch gonna end...feel so wrong...anw...i these few days going siao over religion...ITS SO FUN...yet its so UNBELIEVABLE...sianz...i think i gonna go church more?...XD...listen only haha...anw...haiz...but i feel happy...i think going too deep into religion is juz trappin myself in a cage...freedom is more important...FREE

2006-08-26T12:21:00.000+08:00

today i gonna go church...afternoon...i recently think religion so fun...its so...unbelievable...which it is...to me that is...anw...up to now i've read bout muslims, christians, animists...dots...and i still think muslim believe better...but wad choice i hv...most ppl i noe is christians...so only can go church learn more bout it...haha...hope i listen cna understand more...reading bible now...read so slow...but slowly read someday will finish one...happy...

2006-08-24T17:21:00.000+08:00

wahaha(a soft drink in china)...ok..muahahaha...today so normal...nth happen at all...phy was e best phy lesson i ever had...GO COM LAB...omg...fun?...den we use e crap draw e crap which is crap...dots...my and yan ren's was e best according to mr ong...CUZ ITS STRAIGHT UNTIL...u cant believe one...den hong chew try and try..den i help him move e crap things...DEN GOT A EVEN STRAIGHTER ONE...its like...the result come out the velocity or wadever line is ON 0!!!ZERO!!!TOTALLY ALL THE WAY...i rok...sry...my hand rok...anw..happy.

den aft so late...cuz is aft phy lab...den i rush to take key...DEN I RUSH TO OPEN DOOR...den i rush to return key...den i see huiling+jiemin...looking for teacher take key...dots...den call cher halfway...see me STOP!...den i need find cher oso..den i call again...not in...i run up to 3H where she say she will b..no one...i run down...DEN SEE HER COMING UP..sianz

ok...den in co rm ltr...i prac prac happy....changed my 'la'(6) pipe...WOO...NOW IT ROX...IT ROX!!!...den i vacuumed all e pipes clean!.....YAY....DEN B4 i left...dunno hu...jiemin/huiling/binli said smthn funny...den i laugh..den i was holding spoilt 'gong1'...den it was sharp smwhere..I KNOCK ON FLOOR...cut off my skin...den bleed...den ahppy...den i borrow tissue...but huiling was like...see it only den scream...nth to say...tml rox too...lxb nt going...yay...but i gonna for cip...den i tell cher i got character development shit...excused..DEN I PON E DEVELOPMENT go CO...WOOO...YAY!..

2006-08-22T18:44:00.000+08:00

haha...im gonna turn back to typing english (FOR THE TIME BEING)...anw...i these few days...or weeks...VERY fascinated with religion lor...haiz...den i everyday reach home will read read read...now i reading bible + islamic (the muslims). AND PLEASE...muslim is a religion...wad the people who believe in islamic are called..ok...MALAYS are people...anw...haha...i think i gonna go church this sat...benedict's one..he seems happy i go lol...anw...happy lor...i go church...dun believe...but i think still got 99% chance i wont believe...cuz its like..its unbelievable..so its like...ya...i wont believe...so...its like...I SHOULD WONT believe...ok...i mostly wont believe...u get my pnt..if u dun...i nth to say...ok...i hope sat will b fun...anw...its same as simin's church...haha...sad...wonder how many other ppl go there..we'll see...tml go tell benedict my decision...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...sry...i siao today...more siao den otehr days though im siao everyday...so...im juz siao today...ok?...FINE?!im siao...u get e pnt once again....and if u dun...i still nth to say...so...ya...u get e pnt...den u will get e pnt...if u dun...i oso nth to say...so..im lame today..muz hv broke my leg like shawn...AND SHAWN...UR A SLACKER....pon sch so many days though got valid reason...u shld cry to ur parents and say u wanna study..they will hire NASA space shuttle send u ah...dots...anw...ya...im lame...and siao...like always...more today only XD...HAPPY...ok...sad

2006-08-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

太久没有发贴了。上一次说要继续的，但是始终没有。那就亏待了看不懂华文的人了。人懒便是如此。最近，人生太平淡了。不精彩。美时发生。闷得发慌。因此，我想找碴。好听点就是为生活多添一点乐趣。我应该怎样做呢？是无止境的闹？是努力做另外一个人？是天天找人聊天？是天天天天重复不断？太无聊了。

欲复往其事
如闷初临时

这种感觉早就过去了。

its been too long since i posted. the last time i said to continue, but did not. well, that is sad for people who cant read chinese. this is the result of being lazy. recently, life has been too calm. nothing spectacular. nothing happens. boringness till the extreme. thus, i wanna find somehting to do. finding joy for life is a way to make it sound nicer. what should i do? go crazy without end? try being another person? find someone to talk to everyday? repeat everyday everyday? too boring.

...blah blah

this kind of feeling is long over

2006-07-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

今天的演出完了。非常的开心。非常的伤心。非常的痛心。非常的寒心。
开心是期待已久的演出圆满结束了。安然无恙的结束了。在欢笑声中结束的。
伤心是中四的学长，朋友，知己要走了。被时间逼得往前走。注定要往前走。
痛心是来自别人所无法给的了解和认可。很多事，作了会被误解，不作却会招来闲言闲语。横竖都是死，不如做一些事。有用的事。
寒心是曾经已经过去了。而现在来临了。过去和未来是两个空间的事，要对比那真是谈何容易。

在来说到今天发生的事。首先有趣的就是当校长来看我们时。当她走后，秉融就说还没和她照相，因此校长被叫了回来。但偏偏，校长说男生都过去照相。这一下可郁闷了。就无缘无故的被牵连了。

后来...累了...想睡觉。

too tired..wanna sleep..english tml too

2006-07-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

哈哈哈。我大小三声干吗？再过四天就要到榴莲壳表演啦！也不知道自己应该高兴还是担心。不知道倒是场面会不会乱，到时忙得鸡手鸭脚的那就不好了。在此，我也只能盼望百分之百的成功。再来就说今天周会的事。本人是个共产主义者，不相信有阶级之分。虽然十指终是参差不齐，但我认为还是大家公平，平等的生活会带来比较少的抱怨，比较少的嫉妒。但是，我在此强调，这绝对会增加竞争。竞争带来的事进步，但我认为嫉妒和抱怨带来的是血流成河，生灵涂炭。所以。。。就这样吧！

hahaha...why do i laugh 3 times? 4 days later, we're gonna perform at e esplanade! i don't know if i should be happy or worried. i don't know what the scene will be like and if it will be a mess. well, i can only hope for a 100% success. Let us now talk about today's assembly. i am a communist, thus don't believe in having disparity in ranking. Although our ten fingers are not of equal length, but i think that people living in a fair and equal life will cause lesser jealousy and complaints. But, i stress out that it will cause more competition. Competition brings us progress, but i think what jealousy and complaints bring us is a pool of blood. so....that's it!

2006-07-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

我决定放弃上次所说的。我觉得在这样说下去，我就要与自己的社会脱轨了。今天我想对全世界说今天的事。今天，我...然后就...之后再...最后才...结果是...就这样。今天真的就只有这么多。

today, i've decided to give up on the previous topic. i think if i continue talking like that, i'll steer far from my society. today, i want to tell the whole world what happened today. today, i...then...next...finally...resulted...and that's it. this is really all that happened today

2006-07-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

今天我又该说说什么呢？好吧。就说人活着的目的。本人认为，相信神或诸如此类的东西的人都是在自欺欺人。不管你有再好的证据来证明这些东西的存在，但终究不够。我认为，一旦人类的起因被发现了后，所有的这些东西都会彻底的瓦解。试想想，我们活着为了的是什么？若你说是为了接近神，因为它创造了我们，或是说什么别的，我本身认为是不对的。因为‘它’都是人想出来的，但如果是‘它’让我们去想到‘它’的话，那就是一种自私，而自私也不是我们因该有的好品格。为什么说是自私呢？因为让我们去知道是‘它’多莫伟大的创造了我们证明了‘它’的奉献是想被人了解的，而并不是无私的。瞌睡了。先走一步。我还没进入正题呢！

what should i talk about today? alright. let's talk about the purpose of living. personally, i think that those who believe in god or similar things are just decieving themselves. no matter what proof you have seen to show that these things exist, it never is enough. i think that once mankind find their origin, all these believes will just die out. try thinking, why are we living? if you say it is to get a relationship with god because he made us, or something else similar, i think it is just not right. because the 'he/she/it/the thing/that/etc.' is all thought of by human beings. but if the 'long long crap' made us to know 'the long long crap', then it is selfishness, and that is not a good characteristic. wht say it is being selfish? becuase letting use know how great the 'crap' is proves that '....''s (the crap's the 's) wants to be understood or known by man, and not at all with no aim or purpose. well...im tired...i shall leave first. i ahven't even started on my topic!

只是在写 just writing

2006-07-18T17:56:00.000+08:00

我知道自己不完美，无论是脾气，语气等等都不算是高尚的。但是至少我明白自己的这些缺点而从中改善。我真得受不了身边的种种人物。太多了。世上可憎的东西是在是数也数不清了。曾经是多好我不知道。但我知道肯定比现在好，多半也比未来好。为什么人们在美妙极高等动物使用的语言里参杂无畏的污言秽语？为什么人类在平静的世界令总会争强好胜造成无畏的伤亡和痛苦？由始至终，人类聪明过吗？我们坐在宇宙的大牢房里自由过吗？从生再到死，让自己充足不够吗？让别人更加充足也就罢了。但若是剥夺他人的快乐，损人又不利己。值得吗？

i know that i'm not perfect, no matter in terms of attitude or tone. but at least i recognize my different flaws and try for the better. i really cannot stand the people around me. too much is the things in this world that is contemptuos. i do not know how good the past is, but i'm pretty sure it is better tham the present, and probably the future. why must humans add bad languages into a language only the great animals can speak? why, must we cause others pain and suffering because of our own desire to win? from start till end, has humans ever been smart? we are always in the large jail of the universe. from birth till death, is letting one self live fully not enough? let aside letting others live more contently, must we take the happiness from others and cause others and yourself no good? is it really worth it?

邻居 (neighbour)

2006-07-16T00:57:00.000+08:00

邻居（屋顶改编）neighbour (re-written from 'wu ding' (rooftop))

（1）他坐在我旁边对学习从不厌 (he sits beside me and never gets tired of studying)
而且什么功课都愿给我抄一遍 (and is willing to let me copy all his homework)
（2）他坐在我旁边有书但不想念 (he sits beside me but never want to study)
功课有问题时她最想和我想见 (he wants to see me when he never do his homework)
我慈爱照万千永远都不会变 (my kindness wont change forever)
善良的我只好把功课一一奉献 (thus the kind me will let him copy all my work)
（1）这不就是好邻居应该有得很好关系 (isn't this the good relationship good neighbours should have)
我们各有各自的目的 (we each have out own aims)
（2）功课上（1，2）功课上我们要相辅相成 woohooo (homework wise, we help each another)
（2）好邻居使对方繁荣 (good neighbours prosper each other)
（1）好邻居让对方轻松 (good neighbours let each other relax)
（1）一人读书用功（1，2）两人的成绩好 (one person study yet two get good results)
（1，2）让你（我）一个人去努力争取好的成绩 (let you/me study hard for good results)
（1）我混水摸鱼 (i take it for granted)
（2）好邻居使对方繁荣 (good neighbours prosper each other)
（1）好邻居让对方轻松 (good neighbours let each other relax)
（2）既然要帮助对方（1）就该多读书 (since we must help each other, we must study harder)
（1，2）让你（我）一个人去努力争取好的成绩 (let you/me study hard for good results)
（1）我混水摸鱼（1，2）靠你而繁荣 (i take it for granted, depend on you to prosper)

（2）让我勤劳是谁（1）是你 (who made me hardworking, its you)
（2）让你勤劳是谁（1）不懂 (who made you hardworking, don't know)
（2）靠邻居（1，2）而繁荣不是我们该有的作风 (prosper through our neighbours is not what we should do)
（2）让我勤劳是谁（1）是你 (who made me hardworking, its you)
（2）让你勤劳是谁（1）不懂 (who made you hardworking, don't know)
（2）原来是（1，2）邻居的用途太多太多 (i see that there's too many uses for neighbours)
（1）好邻居使对方繁荣好邻居让对方轻松 (good neighbours prosper each other, good neighbours let each other relax)

第二天 (2nd day)

2006-07-15T13:34:00.000+08:00

我马上就要去看电影了。所以时间不多了。回到家之后我再上传一首歌。是我在上个学期写的。由《屋顶》改编。或许某些人知道，但还是要进自己的责任。下一次再上传那就是自己写的歌了。定会加上我做的和铉铃声。到时再让大家评评怎样。

i'm gonna go watch movie soon, so i don't have much time left. after i get home, i'll post another song that i've written the last term. its re-written from 'wu ding (rooftop)'. perhaps some people might know about it, but i still have to do my job and post it. next time, i'll post a song i've written myself, and the ringtone for it. them i'll let everyone decide if it's nice.

笑一笑 (laugh)

2006-07-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

这是我用歌曲《遇见》改编的歌曲。
this is a song i re-wrote from the song "yu jian (meet)".

笑一笑 (laugh)（遇见改编）(re-written from yu jian (meet))

人生事务写不完 (the things in life cannot be written finished)
终点等待在生命尾端 (the end is when we die)
一点一滴不会忘 (will not forget every single part)
从无趣直到精彩非凡 (anything, from dull to interesting)
每天有我在身旁 (i'm with you everyday)
精彩之事写得出几行 (lots of exciting things to be written)
一切一直由我扛 (i have took hold of everything all along)
人生事务变化无常 (and the things in life changes all the time)

笑一笑人活着往往怕死亡 (laugh that humans are mostly afraid of death when they live)
笑一笑生短暂却又很漫长 (laugh that life is short but yet so long)
笑一笑事太多永远做不完 (laugh that there are too much in life that eternity is not enough)
笑一笑务是命无法去抵抗 (laugh that doing things is life's job and cant be stopped)

人生再暗也会有一处光芒 (no matter how dark life is, there is a bright place)
事务再多总有休息的空当 (no matter how much work there is, there is time to rest)
我们一起走出人生的阴暗 (let us walk out of this darkness together)
忘记从前现在抬头向前看 (forget the past and walk toward the future with our heads up high)

笑一笑我一生无数次败仗 (laugh that i lost so many battles in life)

revived....for the 3rd time

2006-07-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

today i revive my blog...this marks a new beginning and a new end...today...i started to go insane, so naturally...wad i stopped is being sane. oh well...sad lor...*cough* i shall speak proper english from now on. for a better future, for peace, prosperity, patience, progress and thus persevere!!!muahahaha...i evolved from 3Ps in life to 5Ps...sry...i said i go siao ler...no...i went bonkers. anyway...after this post im gonna post 2 songs i've written out of pirated tunes. mauhahaha...im a pirate.

2006-04-09T15:47:00.000+08:00

haiz...i tired of bloggin liao...i shall bi guan for 1 or 2 weeks den come back continur blog..wont blog less got chao funny things or important things...zzz...bb...

2006-04-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

oh...and heres lyrics for tong2 hua4 in eng

forget got how long
i never hear you
telling me your most favoured story

i thought for so long
i start to panic
is it i did something wrongly again

you tell me while crying
that fairy tales are full of lies
i just cannot be your only prince

perhaps you will not know
after you said you love me
my starry sky, started to turn bright

i wish to be the angel, you like in the fairy tale
open both hands become wings to protect you
you must belief, belief we will be like in a fairy tale
happiness will be our end

i want to be the angel, you like in the fairy tale
open both hands become wings to protect you
you must belief, belief we will be like in a fairy tale
happiness will be our end

i will become the angel, you like in the fairy tale
open both hands become wings to protect you
you must belief, belief we will be like in a fairy tale
write our ending together

2006-04-06T16:43:00.000+08:00

waaaa...today dunno wad shit and wad shit lol...morening in sch take out my fone...den is off de!!!...zzz...DEN I ON HE GIMME PUK DISABLED!!!...gg...rmk card...MONEY!!!$$$$down the drain...haiz...dunno lor....b4 i slp still ok de...den suddenly juz kanna disabled...its either i sleepwalk go press de or my mum slpwalk press de....zzz..haiz...sob sob...this 2 days mostly wont hv a fone lol...snorez

2006-04-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

lol...yday chem test is e 1st tym i got study 4 a SCH TEST LEH!!!...feel so proud lol...aft so many yrs of sch den i realize how gd studying is...lol...u write oso write until like so ez...haix...is either e paper ez or i studied well =)
den today is so stupid...rain for wad lol...den kanna trapped in sch...den @ 1st we doin compo..den wanted to go bk with him...DEN WALAO!!!...b4 we leaving he tell me he gg by e OTHER SIDE OF FRONT GATE!!!...not to mrt...sian sian...though i can go any way...btw i went to walk stadium though i wanted to top up ezlink...lol..wad am i doin?...den i walk walk...see alina...told me ahs ppl not gd =( not my fault..sob sobs...

2006-03-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

WAAA...dun wan live le la...so sian today math tutorial...wad crap lor...I COPY 1 QUESTION WRONG 4 TIMES...and another wrong 1 time...waste time sia...aiyo...my math teacher cant help sia...cant cure my carelessness de lor...zzz...snores...haiyo...1st time is mix 2 question de equation...den is copy wrong thing frm tt question...den in i nvr copy qustn..den i juz move things about...den move wrong...y-x become x-y...den last time is wrong same thing...zzz la...nth 2 sae..den i was so dyin to go co prac my yan nan fei...den mr chen die die dun wan me go...snoress..den e most suay part...walk home still muz c him...haiz...den he say wad ppl shld b grouped into cca by math result...crap lor...den say wad co/band ppl math shld b gd...den cd ppl shld b math no gd...not i say wan...u wan den go find chen...crap lor...i tink he implyin i not co...HOW CAN IT B?!?!!?I LUV MY CCA OK?!?!?!

2006-03-29T19:11:00.000+08:00

woooo...whole cls 21/28 ppl FAIL MATH!!!HAPPY!!!yay all go remedial happy happy...crap lar...juz hope tt my math can improve when dad returns...zzz if not my future gonna b ruined...RUINED!!!...sianded la...now everyday go sch oso sian sian slack slack...i now tryin so hard 2 listen in cls lor..btw how..I JUZ GET E URGE TO CRAP...haiz i hopeless la...tian sheng de crapper...no wonder i in sheng...=)

2006-03-28T15:12:00.000+08:00

lol...sry 2 all e sheng ppl...guang mo hui i dun wanna play dong lie...i really really dun wanna...well...its juz tt we've been playing tt 4 dunno how long lerz...and i really wanna try somethn new..dun wanna b stuck wif a same song 4ever...so...im playin yan nan fei wif clarence...well...if u all wan we can play tt...really v v v ez de...dun say anythn or anythn...really ez...play in C diao can liao ler...haiz...if wan den can whole guan yue play ler...some play infront some play behind prt...den happy!...

2006-03-26T17:08:00.000+08:00

lol...yday night i so nth 2 do...i go dl funnie funnie videos...den now watching...over & over again...LMAO...sry...i 4got i laughed it out long ago...but darn funny...zzz...i dl e 3 mtv movie spoof...star wars spidyman and lotr...walao eh..den i dl another 2 lotr...one bout gollum taking price den wad crap scold vulgarity....etc...haiz zhen de...i more & more lame le...den in class alvin keep compete lameness with me...though i still think yong sheng lamest...den everytime someone say alvin lame den he happy!..den i say he lame he HAPPY!...snorez...so say i lame more pls...

AND!...crap my com..im supposed to post this 1 hour ago...cuz MY STUPID ROUTER DHCP DIE DIE DUN WAN RENEW!!!WASTED 1 HOUR OF MY LIFE FIXING IT!!!AND IT HAPPENED 3 TIME LE!!!...CRAP!!!

2006-03-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

sobs sobs...i wanna 4 yrs dun get green form de leh..den yday got my 1st!!!1st LEH!!!...suay dao...ppl around me so many nvr tuck in cher dun pick on dem only pick on me sia...zzz...no la..she was ok...she call me tuck in 1st...den i fake tuck in...den she turn den i tuck out...DEN SUAY SUAY SHE NOT HAPPY GO AND TURN BACK...den pull me to staff room game over...gg...haiz...sianz lor...

lameness

2006-03-22T21:19:00.000+08:00

today...i discovered tt im gettin lamer and lamer...though i was lame all along in my life, i tink today i v lame...well..i really wanna go over my limit and test exactly how lame i really can b, cuz lameness is e very thing tt bring fun n laughter everywhere...being nicely lame is no easy task man....it requires careful planing in a chain of sentences u can say...lameness consists of many kinds...1st there is those which are pure...meaning it is stupid...my kind...there is another...which is where someone keep doing something to irritate ppl...oh ya...the last one...and the best...the type were u break ur leg and say HAPPY!...thats lame

2006-03-21T18:12:00.000+08:00

well...heres a serious post...u wont normally get to see a serious post frm me...btw heres one..

ok...this is the 4th time im writing this

as a teenager, i either think too much or too far. thoughts of things of no irrelevence to me clouds my mind.
i have a deep fear in my heart. a fear so great thinking about it hurts. and that is: the future. often, i look around myself and ask myself : "what will be of a world present with a high percentage of people who speaks of nothing but vulgarities, who does nothing but violence?". nowadays, technologies grow rapidly, down in to the oceans, up into space. but we simply don't see truth. we simply don't look at our own level. the very grounds we are stepping on. is there not so much more of uncivilisation everywhere? is there no more wisdom in the use of knowledge? we know more and more each day, only to use them in a wrong way. the more we know, the more misused it is. we are taught much in school, but we are never taught truth. we can know how to build a nuclear rocket, but what do we know of ourselves? nothing! all we know is we live on. perhaps, we, as teenagers, will mature over time, but what of those who don't? those who lower human's standard to the level of beasts? we treat beasts as inferior, but how much better is the society now? murder, killing of own kins and so much more to the list. we are worse. much more worse than anything walking on this earth now. i admit myself as a human hater, but all these are only thoughts. thoughts i can never achieve. i have a clear heart which makes me fit into the present society, and also think like this. i have to live on. life goes on this way. until some point in life, when many more people look away from the skies, and look onto the ground they are stepping on. the ground present after uncountable years of civilisation. a civilisation which standars is now so low, yet a civilisation which has such technological advances. advances which will be necessary to humans. it can either be the development of weapons, or simply, if i can, something that can make blinded humans see.

2006-03-20T19:05:00.000+08:00

holy crap!!..can u belief it!?!?!?lxb actually SAT DOWN AND TAUGHT US TODAY!!!man...he had the TIME TO TELL US HOW TO PLAY mei li de feng wei zhu leiz!!!tian da de news...btw...i suck man...my sheng is terrigible horrigible...haiz...hopeless le la...and hor...hope every1 truthfully wanna play doraemon =)...fun fun nice nice...and hor...hui ling tok de story can pai xi lerz...not i dun belief...sounds too drama...btw well..anything can happen...the things on earth cant be expected...

today's discovery

2006-03-19T19:12:00.000+08:00

today...i discovered i at bonding camp no le alot of ppl...i dunno de ppl...or at least ppl i dunno well..like...my group leader yulin,minyu,lihan,shumin,wenxin & etc & etc...mostly girls la...cuz boys all no le ma...i mean..theres only 1...mervin...the rest either gays or gals...*hopelessness*...*depression*...i sorta hope dont include me la...btw so many ppl wanna pull me down e drain..so i join lor...yay...im now officially gay...i hope tt still allow me to b removed frm me and yeqin's BBR...BOY BOY RELATIONSHIP...cuz we are QING BAI de...dun belief ask him...he like his father liao..trust me..haiz...these few days lameness took over me...wo de bing fa le...gg 2 every1 blog to lame..dun blame me..bear with it...wo you bing zai sheng...hehe...

scary

2006-03-18T10:20:00.000+08:00

walao eh...yday tot my blog game over lerz...zzz...luckily is blogger de prob sia...scary lorz...walao eh...now i still scared leh...walao....heart pumping like siao...zzz...crap lor..say wad unauthorized...i still tot is wad shit i got wad say something i shdnt say...heng ah...still cant belief...zzzzzzz

co camp

2006-03-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

co camp is soooo fun!...not sarca de...really...i feel its so so so so much better den bonding camp...maybe cuz i no most ppl 4 longer lerz...well...my 人缘 not good de ma...co camp made me realise something...that people nowadays dont seem to grow up...i might b v v v lame..btw im oso v v v childish...so wad i said above is juz fei4 hua4...lolz..im lame...if u no me u sure no im lame de ma...so cant blame me...some more during co camp my left leg get sprained dunno how many times...den oso get hit by chair on last day...confirm got much much more lamer de ma...

2006-03-14T14:47:00.000+08:00

yay...today is e 1st day i hv e holiday to myself...den hor...its gonna end lerz...haiz...now im sittin here...listenin music den waiting mr lim to load his minesweeper flag...(to myself : PATIENCE!!!)...i hv e urge to go play dota...btw...y spoil my spree?..3 weeks nvr play ler...a while longer and i will b free frm its grip...btw hor...with yeqin and etc ppl keep talkin bout it...how to not care?!!?!?...zzz la...PERSEVERE...my pri sch de moto leh....muz persevere!...

2006-03-13T18:42:00.000+08:00

soooo long nvr blog ler....sick sick sick...got dengue...HAPPY!...btw only 1 week...some more dun let me get hospitalized...i wanna live in hospital...change of environment ma...

sec 3 bonding camp is sian lor...all they do is make u do so stupid cheers to wait 4 e food...its like...WOW so fun...well to those who dun agree...not my fault...this is a democratic country...freedom shld b granted to all!!!all hail democracy...

den to day...sco camp audition...yay...screwed my scales...i mean its like...err...i 4got all my fingerings la...which is like so normal...not sacar de hor...aiya...anw...if i get in i gotta buy clarence and bin li ice creamz...and hor...today take taxi bk 2 sch de time so farnie...e taxi driver's dunno who's who oso called clarence...den e auntie bragging bout wad got scholarship la...9 points la...etc etc...SOOOO lame...den tell us wad he had a nick name...clearance...yay...happy clarence dun blame me...its all e auntie's fault...shit im evil...

crap

2006-02-28T09:33:00.000+08:00

oh man...sick for 4 dayz...walao...fever keep 38+++ without gst de...sian lor...feel like dying ler...ltr is dengue den pass 2 everybody..muahahaha...shit im evil!...haiz...i slack sch 2 days leh...btw i dun wan de..trust me...really...i got integrity...e spa thingy hor...miss le will how ah?....i dunno leh...die liao...btw who cares...anw my mc until wed leh...btw as i said...i got integrity..so i'll try my best 2 go sch tml...hahahaha...lol

today...

2006-02-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

today...i discovered some things:
1)im getting older by the day
2)im getting more forgetful
3)im getting more blur
4)im getting more lame (in the conversation sense...not bodily)
5)im getting more crap
6)im getting more sian of everything
7)im getting more prepared to commit suicide lol...jkjk

2006-02-22T17:31:00.000+08:00

[frederick today so cute...so guai...]sian lor...chen yi qing is crap la...finally eng remedial become same day same time as his...den he ap say today dun wan wan let us rest...den tml den remedial!!!!crapper la him...now cant skip remedial again!...snore...shawn worse...abandon me when i help him today no remedial!...

2006-02-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

yay!...all hail lily koh...she so gd...let us tml remedial...which means i hv eng & chi on same day...yeah!!!!....HAPPY!...wonder which i'll go...shit...im evil

O.o

2006-02-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

HOLY CRAP!...i got 23/25 4 SS leh...OMG...hu can belive tt lol...its like...i no time den crap fill de...anw...happy =) wad else lor...zzz...happy leh....happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy =) btw i tink dis tyme i tyco de...hehe...btw i wont mind tyco alot more times like dis...haha....=P

i wanna sit home

2006-02-19T10:48:00.000+08:00

sincerely speaking: i dun like my sis cuz she gave up me for a show she downloaded!...THATS INSANE!...i mean...nvm...im crapping...today sian leh..muz go out later...i lazy like siao still wan me go out...i dun wanna go...i wanna sit home slack slack...blog blog....chat chat....and study...btw...gg out iz 4 studying...i so hardworking!...lolz

a fresh start

2006-02-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

well...here it is...revived...i dun belive myself la....i revived my blog...tts like...omg...unbelivable...zzz...sianz la...today tution..sian de leh...nth much 2 do...juz learn...this yr so many thing unbelivable lolz. nth ever happened tt makes me feel normal...yet...i juz hope all bodes well for me...may we now bow in prayer and pray for me...lord, whoever you are, i have no faith in u except for the truth in my heart...pls let me succeed in wad i wanna...no amen cuz this is not even christianity...its juz a prayer to a greater power aka lord...zzz...im lame...nvm..frm now on hor...im gonna post and post and post cuz i hv nth much else to pass time with...BLOG!...zzz